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December 2012

Hello December. 
Hello bloggers.

Honestly, I don't know what to blog anymore. I have lost my blogging mojo. Should I close this blog or just let it be? You know everything in this life is a choice. You need to choose between this or that. One must know what's good and bad about both choices.

Okay merepek lebih. Cuti sem dah start last week. Another 1 week to go. Aku jenis tak boleh lekat kat rumah. I need to go out somewhere at least kejap. Kalau dah seharian kat rumah, mula la sakit kepala aku muncul. To be honest, I miss college days. Cumanya aku tak rindu part assignment, test, quiz and exam.

Exam? Result? Aku cuma mampu berharap aku tak sangkut mana-mana subject. Crossed fingers. Semester ni aku langsung tak focus. Semua subject tu senang je kalau focus and study. Aku ni je malas. Otak fikir lain. And aku dah bosan kat college tu. Lecturer. Students. Environment. Sucks.

My love life. Typical relationship la kan. Mula-mula je rajin contact and everything. All the ayat manis came out. Chasing part is the most wonderful stage in the relationship. Bila dah in the relationship, everything changed. Everything became so serious. No more "main-main je" punya part. This makes be bored. Aku cepat bosan bila relationship tu takde thrill and excitement.

How to say ah? The way he cared for me is too much. You know like mengongkong. Over protective. Aku tak anggap itu caring or protective. Aku anggap tu macam cubaan untuk menakluk. Aku tak reti nak explain. Contoh, kau dapat takluk negeri A. Kau taknak orang lain dapat negeri A. So kau akan jaga habis-habisan negeri A ni supaya orang lain tak dapat. Itu bukan caring. Itu nak menguasai. Not good.

Secondly, dia suka menuduh. Aku tak faham motif dia. Tuduhan dia yang bukan-bukan. Dia tuduh aku pergi club, keluar malam, jalan with other guys, menipu kat mana aku pergi. Oh my gosh. Semua aku tak buat. Selain big boss aku, dia juga penyumbang utama tekanan dalam hidup aku. To be truth, aku macam dah malas dengan dia. Giving up? Maybe. We'll see.

I think that's all for this time. Idea is running out. Till we meet again. Goodbye :)

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